Lesson from Molds

You know what molds are? Those fungi or stains either black or white that can grow indoors. It can be on walls or cabinets. It is tiny but they grow together so they form big stains.

Last week I noticed some molds growing on my wall inside my room. It is color white and I think they are growing very fast that I can’t tolerate looking at it because the hair on my skin rises every time I saw them! It’s really unpleasant to my sight.

I even search on google what it is and find out that they are molds, stains or fungi. It grows on damp buildings. I don’t know where it is really coming from because I just moved from this house last August and I think it is renovated so it should be better. But I also found out that the ventilation of the house is not good that is why these fungi are appearing!

So, this afternoon I tried to get rid of them! I thought they are only growing on my walls. But when I started pulling my bed and cleaning it I found out that my bed was also infected and getting closer to the wall, I can see small spots of molds growing! eeeewww! It is really disgusting! It’s almost all over the room!

I wanted to call my mom to help me clean! I’m not good at cleaning bacterias like these. But I don’t have any choice but do it. I tried spraying them with insects pest and applying a chalk-like powder on every part of the wall. I hope they will really last and will really kill these fungi around. And be completely gone!

While I’m doing this, God let me realized that even if I thought my life is doing well, like when you see the house it’s clean on the outside but when you look at it closely at every corner you can see bacterias all over. Just like me, I have these molds in my life too that only Jesus can see. Stains of sin, stains of fear, stains of pride, stains of selfishness and many other things that I thought it’s not seen by people. But in Jesus’ eyes, they are seen clearly. It’s awful! I am unclean. I need His hands to wash every stain that needs to be out of my life. And God promised in Psalm 51:2 That He will wash me clean from my guilt and purify me from my sin. (reword from me)

I always thought that when I have my quiet time with the Lord, I go to church and serve him I am doing well, but to look closely at my life I really messed up many times. I don’t notice that molds of sin are growing. It is only by Jesus grace and mercy that can clean me and make me worthy of His sight.

I thank God for the molds! I thank God for the molds on my life because of this I learned to be humble and acknowledge that it’s only by Him that I am made clean! Completely clean!

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When You Come to Realize What Matters Most

As I listen to my play list today, there are words and revelations I am beginning to realize. And so I grabbed my pen and begin writing.

Sharing my journal about how God reveals himself as a loving, merciful Father to me.

August 5, 2017

Saturday, 5:30 PM

I believe you are God my Father, a father who accepts me as I am, a loving father that forgives my sins and loves me unconditionally. I can’t imagine what my life will be if I am not found by you.

The time and moments that I am away from you are empty, I thought it is a happy time. I have someone beside me, I have the things I need, I feel I am complete with those people that love and cares for me but when they left me when the things I have can’t keep me happy I am wrecked and broken and empty. My heart searches for the right thing to do and then you came pursuing my heart again.

I am afraid because I felt guilty about the things I’ve done, but you kept walking beside me and showing me the right way and making me see that it’s only with you that I am complete! That I am loved and contented. And so, I gave my heart to you again and my life was never the same again.

You made me see that there is so much more to life than people than possessions than achievements. These are all dust in the wind because at the end of the day it’s what waiting in eternity that matters. And I found that in you, my Heavenly Father.

And right now my soul is clinging in your words, every promise, every plan, every opportunity is coming on the way, at the right time, in the right place, it will all fall into what you designed it to be!

So, here in your presence Father, I surrender, everything. My plans, my desires, my heart. I know I will always mess up! But I thank you that I’m a mess because that is where I experience your mercy and grace.

What matters most now is your presence in my life Heavenly Father, it is where I want to be the rest of my life. Because in you I found contentment and joy and peace that is unexplainable.

How about you? What matters most to you right now? I would love to hear it out?

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Thanking God

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It’s almost the end of the year! 2016 had come to end and now we will bid goodbye and welcome the new year!

I know everybody is in different moods and feelings. Some are excited to welcome the year,others consider it as an ordinary day, maybe some are also disappointed with the things that are happening in their lives. So, is it possible to have a thankful heart as we welcome the year with all the hurtful feelings and maybe problems that arises? Or when we observe other people suffering? One of the books I read says, Thanking God is not only possible, but advisable.

We may not feel like thanking God in the midst of our suffering, and certainly we don’t want to thank God when disaster strikes someone. Thanking God when we hurt goes much deeper. Thanking God in our suffering means that we can thank Him for getting us through our suffering. But have we ever realized that through the years we have thoughened up. We can handle more pain, especially if it means helping to ease the pain of someone else.

As Winston Churchill once said in one of his shortest but powerful speech:

Never give in–never, never, never, never, in nothing great and small, large or petty, never give in except to convictions of honour and good sense. Never yield to force; never yield to the apparently overwhelming might of the enemy.

This end of the year, we may not know why certain things happened to us, but we don’t give up. We can thank God for never, ever abandoning us. The new year will come and when things get so bad that we don’t think we can bear it any longer, there is someone we can count on to help ease our burden. His name is Jesus, the one who suffered for us more than we will ever know. He is the one who makes our life possible.

Matthew 11: 28-30

Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you. Let me teach you, because I am humble and gentle, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke fits perfectly, and the burden I give is light.

I believe God has made us to endure and overcome suffering.  Jesus promises to help carry our heavy load, that’s why this coming new year, we have many reasons to thank Him and hope in His name.

Happy New Year everyone! I pray that we will have a continuous attitude of thanksgiving no matter what.

 

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A Confident Heart

 

I believe it’s not an accident that you are reading this post. I want you to know that all your waiting time and maybe heartaches matter to God. And this is a letter I’ve read from a blog few years ago that blessed my heart. This is what I believe we ladies need to know. This is why my heart is confident to believe that God loves me and that He has in store great things for me. So here it goes…

To Every Godly Young Woman

To every girl who wants to be called “beautiful,” not “hot.”

To every girl that cries at night because of another heartbreak.

To every girl that just wants to hang out not make out.

To every girl that won’t give away her kisses to just anyone because she knows they really mean something.

To all those girls that want a boyfriend whose dedicated enough to keep God number one above her.

To every girl who just wishes her boyfriend cared more & gave up hope a long time ago for something better.

To every girl who would just once want a guy to give their jacket up when they are cold.

To every girl who just wants him to call.

To every girl who lies awake at night thinking about him

To every girl that is SCARED to put her heart out there again because she has been stupid enough to give her heart away to every guy she sees and watched them take it & step on it.

To every girl who knows what it’s like to show how much she cares and gets nothing back

To every girl that believes in her dreams.

To every girl that’s willing to give everything over to God so that through Him she can achieve those dreams.

To every girl that doesn’t want a guy who just plays with her emotions but actually cares about how she feels.

To every girl that gave her heart away to have it shoved back in her face.

To every girl that’s searching to have a godly boyfriend that loves God with all His heart.

A boyfriend who wants a Proverbs 31 woman and will respect her for who God made her to be and not try to change her.

Someone who she can share everything with…the good, the bad…& everything in-between.

A guy who really loves her, not only as his girlfriend but as a best friend!

A boyfriend who really CARES about what she has to say and what she thinks, not just about how she looks in tight clothes.

A guy who looks at her heart and sees her…a beautiful creation in Christ…and will cherish her as Christ cherishes the church.

Someone who won’t leave her for someone that’s easy and fast, but a guy who’ll stay with her to the end.

I think all girls can relate….

I pray that we would wait for what God has in store for us! There’s a guy out there…God’s working on his heart as He is of yours (& if He’s not, you should really be thinking about “why not?”).

But until you meet that godly gentleman, give your whole heart to God, all your fears & ambitions…let Him smooth out those rough spots!

My youth pastor is awesome. He said, “The world today shows you what they say is ‘love’ but it isn’t really. There’s no commitment!”

So until you get married, commit yourself to Christ.

Let Him show you, true love, & what real dedication means.

Prayer: Heavenly Father, Thank you for loving me even at my worst. When the time comes that its hard for me to believe your promises help me to make my faith bigger and believe and be confident that you know what’s best for me. From now on I trust you that you have a wonderful plan for my life and you make everything work together for my good. Amen.

Rekindling a Dead Dream

I used to have a lot of dreams even when I was small. Like, the simple dream of a young girl to have a beautiful doll house and many dolls. And, it’s a dream come true when one time my mom bought it for me as a gift.

Then, I grew bigger and my dreams of having all the beautiful toys in the world faded and had changed into dreams that are more focused about my future, like to finish my college degree, pass my board exam and have a good job. Along the way I dreamed to travel around the world and visit beautiful places. I also dreamed to have my own family, to be married and have kids. Then, came dreams that are more meaningful for me, like, volunteering to help people in need. And, looking back, I have failed in some areas, but I am thankful that I fulfilled most of them.

Suddenly, I became so contented with my life and the busyness of my schedule had stopped me from dreaming. I almost forget what my dreams are and even forget to dream anymore. Maybe because at some point in my life I let my dreams be burried under discouragement, past mistakes and failures. Reflecting on this, I  felt that I am missing my life. I became so satisfied with the ordinary and with the things I have now.

Thinking about my dead dreams, I came to read an article from one of my favorite speaker Joel Osteen. He said,

It’s never too late to rekindle your passions and dreams. Life often wears you down to forget to be happy about your existence. The best thing to do to prevent yourself from wearing down to mediocre person is to trust in Jesus our Lord and Savior. Dreams never die unless you die. As long as you’re breathing and as long as you still have it, it’s never too late.

So, today, I am choosing to rekindle my dead dreams. I want to dream higher and bigger and dream more! Not to settle for less but for the best. I remember one of my favorite verses in Jeremiah 29:11 that God has a plan for me. To prosper me and not to harm me. To give me hope and a future. I will keep that in my heart and make my dreams alive once more.

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A book called Anything

(Today, I finished reading one of this inspirational book that turned my life upside down. I’ll be sharing some of my thoughts about it.)

Anything by Jennie Allen

Started reading this book two months ago, along the way I stopped because of busyness and maybe not really giving time. But every time I go back to read, again and again it made me cry. Cry because I was swept away by the challenges this book and this author is saying.

How is it to live a life of surrender? A time in your life when God asked you to give everything? Are you ready to give that anything to Him?

My heart breaks! Really! I don’t know if I can do it. This becomes a mirror to me, it reflects that I’m too selfish and so busy about my own things. It broke me, indeed!

Although, I heard this truth about serving and loving God over and over again but just like Jennie told in her book “Many of us have sat in Bible studies or retreats or church talking about what we want to change and how we want to change and how we want to live for God, only to go home and back to the routine of life. “

Exactly me! Honestly, it is impossible to do it on my own. A surrendered life is not easy! I’m thinking, If God asks me anything, I am just so scared if he does. What if He ask me to give up my career? My family? And all those that I love to do? I don’t know if I can take it. That is why this is life changing! A choice I need to do. Not because I have read this book; but this helps really! Not because people are doing and even dying doing it. The thing is, I need to really be motivated! Be driven with my love for Jesus.

It is only by Jesus. If I look at the cross how He carried my burden, my shame and all of my sins I see the love He has for me. It is filling my empty, selfish, bitter and hard heart. It’s filling me more and more each day. Will I let it overflow?

That is the challenge I am facing right now, will I let His love for me overflow that it can touch maybe or even at least one life? Or will I keep silent and enjoy Him on my own?

He who did not spare His son for me gave everything how can I not do the same?

Now, I don’t know if I will be taking that challenge. If I will pray the prayer of anything. But one thing I know now, I want to live the life God wants me to have, because I now understand the reason why He came into this world, because He loves all people, and for me as a recipient of that love, He wants me to share that to others. I think I am exactly where He wanted me to be and that He wants me to have that heart of obedience to that anything He asks me.

This is an ongoing obedience to the Lord, I am on progress…I sometimes fail, I know I will! But by His grace I can run this journey of obedience and courage together with Jennie and to all those great people who responded to give their anything to the master.

This is indeed a great book! A must read for those people who are eager to know what it means to live a surrendered life!

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Only Believe

I will be sharing to you my morning devotion today, from streams in the dessert devotional app.

Perhaps in your life. You say, “I do not understand why God let my dear one be taken. I do not understand why affliction has been permitted to smite me. I do not understand the devious paths by which the Lord is leading me. I do not understand why plans and purposes that seemed good to my eyes should be baffled. I do not understand why blessings I so much need are so long delayed.

Friend, you do not have to understand all God’s ways with you. God does not expect you to understand them. You do not expect your child to understand, only believe. Some day you will see the glory of God in the things which you do not understand.—J. H. McC

I love these verses about believing Jesus’ promises.

John 11:40
Did I not tell you that if you believe, you will see the glory of God?

Romans 8:32
He who did not spare his own son,but gave him up for us all-how will he not also along with him, graciously give us all things?

I’m so glad that Jesus reminded me again that His promises are true. So this morning I challenged myself; I wrote all that He promised me and its a joy to see that I almost filled my note!

So, I would like to challenge you today to write all the things that you believe about Jesus; all his promises to you.
You can start with the phrase,
I believe that….

Happy writing! Be blessed!

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